Wednesday, May 10, 2006

The Final Countdown

(Has my title put that awful song in your head?! It's driving me crazy!!)

This is my last week of maternity leave, and I have never felt less ready to get back to work. My interview was, in my opinion, completely awful. I can't think straight and I can't get my head back into work. The job I interviewed for is so close to my house and would be an ideal position for me. However, my previous luck with interviews this past twelve months has me reeling still, and my confidence is in the toilet. I feel like I came across as scatterbrained, weak, and incompetent. Of course, I've believed I've tanked interviews before and I end up getting the job, so we'll see.

On Monday, I start back, but only part time. I'm working half-days Monday through Thursday, then a whole day on Friday. The following week I'm back up to full time. I'm hoping that will make the transition easier. Also, I took Marcus into daycare yesterday and I'm doing so again tomorrow... just in the afternoon. I couldn't believe how much it bothered me to drop him off. I was nervous the first day I left Athena. She was only six weeks old and so helpless. But this guy is much more independent (not that he's doing anything on his own... he's just more communicative and easy-going), and two weeks older than Athena was, and yet I still feel like my heart is being ripped from my chest when I leave him. I never had that strong a feeling when I left Athena. It's odd.

Still looking for a business partner to buy/run a franchise with me. Any interest out there? Send me an email. This would, of course, require that you live in the area. :-)

9 comments:

A Girl From Texas said...

I came across the following blog:

http://athenamummy.blogspot.com/

A woman has a daughter named Athena and she is pregnant with her second child.

It made me think of you.

Chris said...

She's in Singapore. Weird. Did not expect Athena to be asian.

Bern said...

Good luck in getting the job.
Did they ask you questions like :
What do you see yourself doing in 5 year's time?
Why do you want this job?
:)

Cathy said...

Good luck with the new job!

I can't believe your maternity leave is over! It seems like just last week that we were waiting for Mr. Man to make his appearance.

Katy said...

I felt like I did really poorly when I interviewed for the job I have now -- that took me away from working with you :o( -- and I got it. Did you feel as though they *like* you? I think that it was my charming personality, certainly not the answers to the questions I was asked, that secured me the position. That said, I have my fingers crossed for you. I hope you get it.

xo

Jessey said...

That is why I didn't go back to work at all after Dylan was born. I can't bear to leave him or his sister, it's hard even to leave him with my trusted sister in law, I definitely would throw up if I had to leave him with strangers.

eaf said...

Jessey. fortunately these folks aren't strangers anymore. I'm really happy that the same two women who took care of Athena when she was an infant are still in the infant room. I love that consistency... knowing who they are as well as they know me and my kids.

Katy... my personality didn't come across I think. I was so nervous and cloudy-headed... I'm not sure I was always speaking in English. For all I know, I spun my head 360 and spewed green peas all over them. I have very little recollection of the interview as a whole.

Although I do think I would have noticed pea soup everywhere...

Bernie: Fortunately, none of the inane questions we all know and hate. They asked good questions that I was about 85% prepared for. *sigh*

Jessey said...

I'm glad you could find day care that you are comfortable with. All the day cares up here are sheisty. I would be nervous all day.

Staci said...

Im thinking of you on your first day back! Hope all goes well!